A Beginning

It's a couple of days after Christmas 2013. Family time is over, and I'm a bit contemplative this morning. My brother made a great video of our family and it's adorable, but all I can see is the big lump of blue in the chair. Okay, I hadn't slept well the night before, but I also realize that I was in that chair the bulk of the day.  I have little energy and look terrible.

I've been heavy for 20 years, but it didn't make me uncomfortable until recently. I'm finding simple things difficult and am unnecessarily winded too quickly. The first few steps after sitting are weak and painful. I turn 45 this year and have decided - I am done being fat. 

I'm way more than 300 pounds. My scale won't read that high, so I'm not 100% sure of the number. That makes me sad. 

Last night, I fell asleep with the television on and woke up to a NutriBullet commercial. I have two friends that have made significant changes to their diets - one going vegetarian (he calls all other food "poison" - I think it's a trick, but if it works...) and the other one started juicing. It seems like both choices have done them well, so I'm going to copy them and see how this goes. Today I'm going to Sams and getting a NutriBullet and lots of fruits and veggies. I have sealers so I'll stock up and freeze a bunch. 

My biggest hope is that I'll stick with it. I don't want this to be a resolution. I'm not starting on Jan 1, I'm starting today. I'm not dieting and won't deprive myself of meals with friends. But I'm really hoping adding nutrient-dense food will make me feel better and jump start my body to losing weight and not feeling so heavy all the time. I'm too firmly rooted to the ground these days. It's time to lighten up. I'm hoping blogging will keep me on track.